Thursday, 24 December 2009

Bleugh

I have a new desk and it is made of glass.

This is fine, but the metal frame slots into indentations in the glass, giving the metal the appearance of going entirely through the glass.

It means the desk becomes one-of-those-surfaces where there appear to be ridges/depth/texture in certain places, but when you go to rub your finger on them it's perfectly smooth.

Destroys the mind.

Goodnight.

Sunday, 13 December 2009

Hrm.

Okay, so I tend to over think stuff, has you know from the last post.

Yeah, but I recently came into contact with somebody who does this kind of thing themselves but they sort of push it into your face - it's so frustrating.

I hope my over thinking doesn't come across as being so apparent in every day conversation.

Also I really like Chiptune music for some reason, I can only assume that an entire childhood of Nintendo hand-held consoles using 8bit sound generators has done this to me.

I put most of the angst in the last post down to it being Christmas, and at this time of year just about every product and advert - even food - is being sold to you BECAUSE YOU AND YOUR PARTNER MUST HAVE A GOOD CHRISTMAS TOGETHER. So it's kind of annoying.

I take solace in the fact that I went through a similar experience of feeling angst-y for my ex the Christmas before last, but surviving that to January saw me meeting my last girlfriend. So I'm hoping that pushing past the RELATIONSHIP-OR-FAIL advertisements of Christmas. (X_X;)

Also I've heard people say before that some people can code, and others just can't. Not being rude, they say, but some people just can't deal with the logic behind it all.

I'm starting to believe them, there are people in the world who just don't see code in their head at al, it's very disheartening and incredibly awkward. I mean, helping these people is great, there's still hope, but you also have that thought in your head of "This person is spending inordinate amounts of money on their education in this area and they don't look like they're ever going to understand it. Either this person will never get a job doing this, or they will be one of those terrible teachers that knows enough to fool the humanities department but not enough to actually hold up to questioning from a class of students."

Stereotypical argument there, but it happens. Meh.

No really, though, chiptune music is totally awesome. LIKE RADICAL DUUUUUDE! D:

I suspect I'm partially procrastinating here, I have Java coursework to document so my parents can get it printed at their work places tomorrow. As well as 250 words of business management report to write for tomorrow... *shifty eyes*.

Oh yeah, and I'm totally working on a computer game for an indie game development competition called Assemblee. There is no prize other than nice words and a warm fuzzy feeling in your tummy.

I'm not going to win, firstly the other competitors are super 1337, secondly one of the other competitors is MAKING A GOD DARN MMO O_O.

Still, it's fun trying. Here is my thread on their forums:

:D

Should be interesting. I'm mostly in love with the title screen, so chuffed to bits with that, ha ha!

Oh yeah, and for Electronics we're doing an audio amplifier as our projects :O I hope I do all right, the electronics I'm fine with - but it's just the background research, documenting and referencing I suck at... >_>.

Rawr.

Being a home student:
Pros:-
  • Comfy
  • Parents do stuff for you
  • All your stuff is here
  • Familiar
Cons:-
  • Spend about 3 hours every day just getting to and from university
  • Social life is measured on a scale of non-existent to I-saw-my-Nan-today-by-chance
Logistically balances up, but god does the travelling suck >:C! Plus meeting people might be cool.

This doesn't mean I'd want to not be a home student, mind, don't get me wrong. I just feel a little bit like some of the social side would have been welcomed :( maybe.

Thursday, 26 November 2009

So, right, there was this vegan...

..and she told me to write about what I'd been thinking about according to my last post, where I mentioned having plenty of time to hide in my mind.

A large portion of my time when out and about for university is spent thinking about everything and everyone around me. I'm not naturally sociable, and 'how to behave' isn't something I know instinctively. I spend a great amount of concious effort thinking about my posture, location, expression and particularly where I'm looking.

For years I've happily marched about the place staring at a nice square area of floor stretching from the backs of my feet to about two or three feet ahead of me. It suited me well enough, I would just travel about, glance around enough to avoid sign posts and the passing pavement below me acted as a suitable backdrop to daydreaming - the rhythm set by my legs sliding in and out of my vision.

That was nice, and all. It's just that, it doesn't really exude confidence. I'm not especially confident, but there's no need for my body language to tell everybody around me, so I've started trying to look up. It was damn hard at first, and it still is. The temptation to glue my eyes back to that little square is enormous. It's safe looking there. Looking up involves looking in the right places and, well, I don't know where that is. I can't do the thing where you just lock your head forwards and daydream, because people coming the other way immediately make me panic about whether I'm accidentally looking at them in any way.

So, the alternative is to keep looking around. I figure I must look as shifty as hell, but perhaps that's better than inspecting the pavement between Snow Hill and Aston University. Plus, I figured that in a city, perhaps it's better to look shifty and moderately confident when walking about on a winter night through an alley, than to look meek and pathetic. Something like that.

Then there's when I'm waiting at the station, standing on a platform of people facing another platform of people. Two problems here. Firstly is positioning yourself on your platform so as to not irritate anybody else, I don't want to seem as though I'm barging in front of them to get a better seat. Secondly is that, once positioned, you have to look somewhere and near 180 degrees of 'somewhere' is packed with human beings. When you struggle to understand where to look on a half empty street, 40 people staring back at you is not relaxing, let's just say that.

So there's an exhaustive amount of my social worries, that's just the surface, but I can't think of more off the top of my head. Plus it's a kinda boring topic, anyway. I'm getting better, maybe, slowly.

A small amount of time is spent thinking about university, not including when in lectures, obviously - that's kind of obvious. Perhaps I should think more about it, but I don't get a lot of work outside of lectures and I'm a really bad procrastinator so most projects I have I'm putting off since they have (not so far away) dates for handing in. I think there's a word for "dates for handing in" but for the life of me it just slipped from my mind as I went to type it.

I have a big barrier in the way of thinking now, though, in the form of books. A great escape from reality, although even in books I'm not that safe from thinking. My mind is highly susceptible to digression. A single line from a book can inspire long, long trailing paths of thought about anything from relationships to technology to society to self-analysis. Otherwise, though, an escape from reality is how books are and entertaining ones at that. I used to be a fan of fantasy books but recently I've been reading action type affairs involving lots of pew-pew and the essential romance, lost friends and last-minute victories for the good guys. Yadda-yadda.

-- Angst snipped to regain measure of dignity --

Also, I spend a lot of time thinking about how cool it would be to have a mech, what it'd be like to have the powers of Starfire from Teen Titans and - on the rare occasions I get angry - what it might have been like to have not restrained myself those times when people were jackasses at secondary school, I'd be fascinated to have experimented to see what Karate from the age of 6 would have permitted in those situations.

That is what I think about, generally, perhaps it was interesting for she who asked.

I hope it wasn't too much, word wise and detail wise. I have a tendency to get more off my chest than people on the receiving end would really like.

Well, as I say, my blog, tough. Bwahahaha.

We'll see. Ttyl.

Sunday, 22 November 2009

Oh my!

I'm a university student. Woooooaaaah!

Surprise.

I am surprised. I hope you are, too. Electronic Engineering & Computer Science, it makes me cool.

I deleted a few older posts, because they were too coding oriented, and let's be honest nobody gives a damn about coders and their code except other coders - and that's rare.
Although to be fair, nobody is going to read this either, but whatever. I felt that if I was going to have somewhere on the internet to post things from time to time, people are going to find it sometimes, and if they have just met me and find this blog they'd probably avoid me from then on - so I figured it was time to remove the boring parts.

So now I'm trying to just discuss interesting bits and pieces. Or... just myself. *cough*. Yes.

I'm currently coming to you from the power of the mobile broadband usb dongle, because my house's broadband is... unhappy... or something.

I haven't been playing so many games recently, and not too much coding, either. Spending a lot of time just thinking when I'm at home, and thinking is dangerous!

University wise things are pretty okay, the computer science aspect is represented so far as just Java programming, which is like a much easier version of C++ so it's mindlessly easy. Then there's the electronics, which is more difficult but also interesting enough to make you learn it.

Socially at university, I've made a couple of friends so far, who I see from time to time and chat to in lectures a little bit, but most of my time is spent reading books or travelling to and from uni.

That's right, travelling. I'm one of those home students. They're right, it does put you out of the social loop, and on one hand I'm fine with that - I'm not a social person at all, I mean for gods sake I'm blogging to a non-existent audience. So you know. On the other hand, I'm spending a lot of time in my own mind, reading, in lectures or sleeping. Is that normal? I sort of wish I being forced to meet people.

I'm not, though, so whatever. Ha. I'll manage.
Hrm.

Oh yeah, Pringles taste good. Yeah, you come here for the juicy facts you never knew, right?

Currently writing here but simultaneously providing tech-support for university students who are stuck with their coding coursework, whilst trying not to help them in a way that is cheating.
I seem to attract these people.

Oh yeah, in the midst of my angst-y lack of socialising I had an awesome Skype conversation with Sinéad and a group of her friends at Glasgow university. That cheered me up a lot, just a bit of time - albeit electronically - chatting with some people, most of whom I'd never met before. It was cool, I feel like we got on somewhat, and it was nice.

And one of them was Russian.

Coolest. Accent. Ever.

Except maybe Irish and Welsh and Australian. They're cool, too. I really appreciated that conversation, if any of you read this at some point, somehow, perhaps Sinéad.

I use return keys a lot. I just had to edit this to use about 2/3rds less newlines.

You'll notice I write a lot, that's because stuff just comes into my head and my touch-typing just lets it splurge out onto the screen in a stream of conciousness for editing later, and I seriously don't have anything better to do. Haha.

I've played a lot of guitar today, both real and guitar hero. I love my guitars, they make me feel better when I don't feel so great. Acoustic only, though, electrics are clearly for losers! Haha.

Okay I've written stuff, wondered whether or not to actually post this, is it too angst-y? Is it too boring? WHO CARES IT'S MY BLOG bwahahaha. People either read it or they don't, it's up to them, I guess it's not really my problem.

Perhaps just writing stuff makes you feel better, in which case why not just write a word document and then save it away or delete it? I guess maybe people who write blogs like this really hope that somebody will see it and respond nicely or something. The whole idea of a blog is kind of attention seeking. Blogs don't work without attention.

Harumph.

I'm going to... go and... um. Sit here and check my google reader and google mail obsessively for a few moments, find it's not changed since 5 minutes ago, and then daydream and wonder if I might be treated to any more skype conversations - or in fact any conversation at all.

Quiet time, maybe. Ttyl >: lol.

Thursday, 23 April 2009

w00t!

I would just like the world to know, my computing coursework is now finished. Yes, that's right.

Finished.

Sorry, I just want to say that again.

My computing coursework is finally finished.

Mmmm. It feels good to say that. Finished.

Yeah, so I'm happy about that. I do, however, still have less than four weeks until my exams and very little physics and maths revision under my belt. I'll leave you to guess as to how stressful that is by yourselves, but here's a hint, an insight from my mind: "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!"

Just sayin'.

I wish all UK A-Level exam takers good luck for the up-coming weeks. Anyone else taking exams, good luck to you also, but I don't know where else has exams around May/June? Except of course secondary schools. They have GCSEs around now, don't they?

Whatever, I'm at college now, I don't have a lesson until 11:30 but I've been here since about 8:30, as is my tradition. It sounds weird but it turns out it actually takes less effort for me to get here really early than it does for me to get here 'on time'.

I really need to revise. *sad*

Oh, by the way. Left 4 Dead survival mode is out. It is very awesome. I shall have to post images at some point in the future, oh yes. As it is the awesome. You never saw so many special infect in your life! It's also very hilarious, I might add.

I'll post again Soon (TM)!

Tuesday, 14 April 2009

Okay, so 7 months later...

Yeah okay so I missed a few posts. Maybe many.

Okay lots. Still, here I am. I'm 18 now, don't you know! That's quite cool.

I bought GTA IV recently for the PS3, golly gee whizz it's awesome. What's novel is the total lack (without a USB headset, do you have a USB headset? I don't, who on Earth has a USB headset!?) of ways to communicate with other players in multiplayer. You have to resort to primitive dance, the whole actions speak louder than words.

Of course this is difficult when everybody elses actions just seem to say "BANG BANG! U DED!". It's a tough life, GTA. I mostly like the helicopters. They are muchos cool.

Also worth note, technically complete a campaign on Left 4 Dead with the difficulty on Expert the other day - even survived the Last Stand. Sadly I had joined this particular game half way and got no achievement. *sadface*.

A point here, feel free to add me on playstation network. My username is, coincidentally, PiedotTaste. I mostly play GTA IV or Killzone 2 (similarly awesome).

College is 'interesting' at the moment (despite how I'm in the Easter holidays?). I have less than five weeks until I must sit my A-Levels, the results of which shall determine my ability to attend university. Good fun.

I need to achieve BBC to get into my chosen university, Aston, in Birmingham. Technically I'm currently working at ABC. These grades - in order to keep them - require that, firstly, I complete my computing coursework.. which is in dire need of some loving. Secondly, I must revise much maths. I'm talking lots of practice, learning trig identities, etc. Thirdly I must do a fair amount of revision for physics.

So this basically boils down to "revise, damnit!". This is true. Unfortunately, 1) Revision sucks. I'm sure you're all aware of this, but I need to re-iterate because of the severe importance of this point. 2) Coursework sucks more than revision. Some of you might disagree. I don't blame you, some people really dig this coursework stuff and find it easy. Give them a checklist and promises of a good grade and they'll go right on and win life. Sadly I fail at coursework, I struggle to make my mind concentrate on it.

Oh yes, I'm rather into animé you know. I haven't mentioned this in my blogs before, but I am.

Mostly since starting college and being guided towards the good stuff by new friends who also have the animé bug.

I'm currently completely up to date with Bleach and Naruto, working my way through the first episodes of One Piece. Bleach is easily the best one, here. It's just great. Naruto is certainly okay and One Piece is shaping up to be fairly good.

The worst thing about getting into an animé is that when you start, you've got over two hundred episodes (in the case of Bleach) to watch (214 episodes as of the time of writing, supposing you were to start now). If you skip the intro and outro of each episode you're looking at about twenty minutes an episode. That's just under three days of animé. It seems like you've got loads to get through and when you have spare time you can just gorge on it. It's wonderful. Then after many gorges and many weeks, you eventually end up at the current day episode. It really hurts if you're mid-gorge. You're getting into the animé and there's a cliff hanger, you go to press 'next episode' as you have the past 213 times... argh! What is this? No... n-no next episode? WHAT IS THIS?

Then you have a little cry, in a dark room. There there, my child. There'll be another episode.. next wednesday.

"WEDNESDAY?" you cry, in anguish.

I'm afraid it's so. Then after that, another week of waiting. The next wednesday.

It hurts. I know. We must endure this for the greater good of animé.

I've also recently discovered twitter, it's pretty cool. The awesome likes of Adam Savage and Grant Imahara from Mythbusters use it, and it's cool to see the stuff they post.

I'm going to go ahead and sate your drooling mouths and tell you my Twitter account name, I know it's hard to guess, .. hey. Calm down, I'll tell you in a second. You rabid fans, you!

It's PiedotTaste. Try not to fight over it and subscribe atll at once or anything, don't want to break Twitter with the sheer mass of you! All... zero readers.

Hrm.

On that note, I bid you adieu!

Swoosh!

Sunday, 8 July 2007

Woah, you're doing something for once!?

Yes! I am! >:D

Yesterday I felt like stalking around (haha, pun that will make you laugh later, honest.) the Garry's Mod forums in the custom Gamemode sections. Some people had made some interesting mods which I checked out.

One mod which, sadly, i found no servers for but seemed a bit interesting was Stalker RP (GET IT NOW? I AM SO FUNNY!). It was a role playing gamemode that was based somewhat on S.T.A.L.K.E.R: Shadows of Chernobyl. It obviously wasn't as good as the real game but, that's given as S.T.A.L.K.E.R: Shadows of Chernobyl is godlike.

So anyway, after playing this mod I realised that it had essentially tried to take the "main" game elements and stick them into Garry's Mod, these being "Get artifacts", "Avoid anomalys", "Trade with people". An extra feature that never shipped with the final game, i believe, was "Blowouts". The Stalker RP mod did implement this in an... interesting... way. As in there is a timer to the next 'Blowout' by which time you have to be 'safe'. When the timer runs out radiation blasts from (some mysteriously unknown locations) and kills you if you aren't 'safe'. Sadly the mod never actually tells you how to be 'safe'. Although once I did, out of desperation, seal myself in a dumpster and enter a vehicle pod, sitting out the radiation quite unharmed.

Playing this made me think that, surely if it can be broken down into such simple elements it wouldn't be that hard to make a basic implementation in 2D, right!? So, I decided to set up a google code website for it (i'm too lazy to use a USB stick to transfer my projects between PC and Laptop ): and made a partially complete to-do list on there. Now I should be able to start cracking on with things.

As it stands, my to-do list currently states that I should be making a rather interesting map-editor. Hmm. It seems I have plenty of work to do, eh? ;_;

For anyone interested in watching the project the google code page is here. Go there now >:[

Hopefully this will be one of those projects I finish... ;)